Published 7:38 PM EDT Oct 15, 2018
Nicole Kidman says her marriage to Tom Cruise shielded her from the rampant sexual harassment that plagued Hollywood, due to his star-power.
"I got married very young, but it definitely wasn’t power for me – it was protection," Kidman writes in an essay published in New York Magazine's latest issue on women and power.
She continued: "I married for love, but being married to an extremely powerful man kept me from being sexually harassed. I would work, but I was still very much cocooned."
Kidman, 51, and Cruise, 56, began a whirlwind romance after meeting on the set of 1990's "Days of Thunder." The co-stars said "I do" that year and went on to adopt two children together.
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Their marriage came to an end more than a decade later in 2001, but Kidman says their relationship is still hard to discuss.
"Being married to Tom Cruise at 22 is something I’m always reluctant to talk about, because I’m married now to the man who is my great love (Keith Urban), and it almost feels disrespectful," she writes. (Kidman married the country singer in 2006 and they have two daughters together.)
But, the “Big Little Lies” star says she was forced to "grow up" after splitting with Cruise during her early 30s.
"Of course I’ve had #MeToo moments," she reveals. "Do I want to expose them in an article? No. Do they come out in my work? Absolutely."
Kidman continued: "I’m open and raw. I want to have my well of experience and emotion tapped into, used – and I’m not just talking about sexual harassment. I’m talking about loss, death, the full array of life. But it has to be by the right people so it’s not abused again."
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